On the work side I’d like to set up alternative ecosystems for people tired of the traditional options for social with Tumblr, listening with Pocket Casts, and writing with Day One. This year on the personal side I’d like to take more silent retreats, get settled at home and out of liminal states, particularly construction projects, and listen to more operas. I don’t have any particular wisdom from this birthday except no matter how you feel, take some Advil and keep going. I wore a new comfy matching tie die outfit too, because, why not? Ended the day with a small dinner with Mom and three friends. The museum was magical, but the best part was seeing friends I wasn’t expecting to, even if masked and relatively distanced. The day really shaped up, though! Friends surprised me with a trip to a Teamlab exhibit at a museum that was closed on Tuesdays but they got opened up just for us. It hit close to home, and I’ve ended up returning to that meditation several times since. We’re going to let ourselves be right here, inside any confusion, and take a break from trying to fix any of it. So we’re going to try something different, we’re going to stop scrambling and accept, even forgive, the boggle. So what’s interesting about the boggle is that there’s the challenge of the situation itself, or situations, and there’s the added challenge of the confusion of it, the scrambling to make sense of everything. Even no idea what self-care strategy to implement right now. I meditated with a Daily Calm from Jeff Warren called “The Boggle,” which unfortunately I can’t hotlink but here’s how it starts: Sometimes we’re in the boggle, life is throwing everything at us: complicated situations, complicated relationships, we have all these feelings, all these impulses pulling us in different directions, and we have no idea what to do. I thought of the Drake line, “I’m really too young to be feeling this old.” (Maybe originally from Garth Brooks?) ![]() So I was feeling extra isolated, had a strange pain in my lower back, and I just felt old all over. I was also on a fairly strict diet and exercise regime after slipping into a weight range I wasn’t comfortable with. ![]() I was locked down even more strictly than January 2021 because I was trying to be extra cautious prior to a surgery my Mom had later in the month. I woke up on my actual birthday and was not feeling it. ![]() This is an unusually late birthday post (still backdated to January 11).
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